Trying to Seeing the End from the Middle

In my journey with Jesus I have recently found myself looking too far ahead and trying to predict the unpredicatable. In some ways it like I'm trying to see the future so that I can make decisions today that will create the conditions for the outcome I desire. While on the surface that may sound innocent enough I'm reminded again that what I really want in control. I want to control the future rather than live in the present because living in the present means that I have to trust someone else with the future.

Jesus said that His followers didn't need to worry about tomorrow because today had plenty of things to occupy our attention. So why is it that I struggle with this so much. Why worry about things that I can't do anything about? In the end it all comes down to trust. I trust God to do what's best but I'm also fearful that He won't do what I want Him to do. So the wrestling match goes on as I daily learn to let go of my will and let God's will become mine.

Life, it seems, is all about who's in charge.

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